...when I started to feel this insane need to compose, I was living in an "odd minded" situation. Everything in my world was a misunderstanding, but inside my head something was clear... something wanted to scape from me... something wanted to be part of me from the outside.
But it was not that easy. Actually it was very hard because this need became an obsession, I was looking for something than could pull off this feeling. And finally I found the music, it could be my shaft.
But the music by itself was already with me. I was a keyboard player, and it was not enough, I feel that in someway I had to mix that feeling with the music, but how.
Long I stood there, trying to make something with my fingers in front of the piano, but nothing came.
One day, my life was hit by a sentimental storm, I felt in a weird feeling inside my head (I will not talk about my heart, for now). When I am nervous, or I feel bad for something, I use the piano to relax my thoughts, to think again in the issue and feel better with it. So I went to the piano and I started to press the keys, relaxing myself with it, but something happened; my hand in the keyboard made a melody that expressed exactly how I felt in that precisely moment, and each time that I played it, I felt like if the bad feeling was no more, actually the more that I mastered the better that I felt with myself. Finally I felt it no more when the song was ready, I was healed by the music...
A. Robert
1 comment:
I think it's awesome that you can actually verbalize the whole process of composing, because it seems to have a deep connection between your emotions and your thoughts.
I also believe you are gifted, because your emotions flow to your hands and keyboard and make this music that eases your pain. Sometimes expressing ourselves is difficult and that increases the "mind storm", so I think you're lucky to have this sort of predisposition that makes your feelings turn into a song.
Luv u :)
<3
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